Take Time To Realize...

It's been a while since my last entry...well, I've gotten pretty busy with my work...& boss are complaining that my performance going down...hmmm...was it? Watever lah...

2 weeks ago, I went to Singapore with a fren...it's an impromptu trip & I have to admit...I enjoyed our trip...though there was some uneasyness that I felt but hey... I learn to live with it... ;-)

The best moment there was probably our trip to Universal Studio Singapore...glam! glam! glam! Never knew that I would enjoy that short moments & time just to feel like a kid again...so enthusiatic on the magical world of technology...!

It was definitely a fun weekend...! Kiddy weekend...& to be honest...If I had the chance again, I wouldn't miss it for the world... ;-)

I went Treasure Hunting last weekend & it was a fabulous trip too! I have lots of fun with my frens here...I took some time to think abt my life during my stay at Cherating the other day... would I be able to leave KL when I have to...? It would be very hard for me...

I'm gonna miss the shopping atmosphere, the malls, the freedom but most of all, along the way I meet great friends here, which I can never live without...u guys know who u r...

They were the pillar of my strength & always gives me great advices abt life, love & friends, career etc...Why does the best kind of friendship comes when the least I expected it? & it happens when I'm at this age & I'm about to leave KL? I enjoy my great company with them...doing things we love together...we share our joy & sadness...it was d best feeling...& I'm genuinely happy... ;-)

Suddenly, I realize that I am lucky...to have the chance to get to know great friends around me...they are definitely gifts frm God...for me... ;-)

Luv u guys so much...!


Cill

Here Comes Goodbye...

This song reminds me of my Dad...

I cried whenever I saw the video...

Dad,
You're always gonna be in my thoughts, my prayers & my life...
Though you're gone, you will always gonna be in me...

I love you daddy...




Here Comes Goodbye

I can hear the truck tires coming up the gravel road
And its not like her to drive that slow, nothings on her radio
Footsteps on the front porch, I hear my doorbell
She usually comes right in, now I can tell

Here comes goodbye, here comes the last time
Here comes the start of every sleepless night
The first of every tear I'm gonna cry
Here comes the pain, Here comes me wishing things had never changed
And she was right here in my arms tonight, but here comes goodbye

I can hear her say I love you like it was yesterday
And I can see it written on her face that she had never felt this way
One day I thought Id see her with her daddy by her side
And violins would play here comes the bride

But here comes goodbye, here comes the last time
Here comes the start of every sleepless night
The first of every tear Im gonna cry
Here comes the pain, Here comes me wishing things had never changed(d)
And she was right here in my arms tonight, but here comes goodbye

Why does it have to go from good to gone?
Before the lights turn on, yeah and you're left alone
All alone, but here comes goodbye

Oh-oh-oh-oh

Here comes goodbye, here comes the last time
Here comes the start of every sleepless night
The first of every tear I'm gonna cry
Here comes the pain, Here comes me wishing things had never changed
And she was right here in my arms tonight, but here comes goodbye

What You Waiting For

I was introduced by a fren abt this song...& it was really fun & cute song...!

It reminds me of the Topless PT guys at FF...awesome threesome...!
Especially the last guy...oh my..oh my...if only...right?

To the guy that I can only dream of, do enjoy this song as much as I enjoy seeing you the other day...you make me wanna...**** ahahaha! ;-)



Mizznina ft Colby O'Donis - What Are You Waiting For

Bad Girl Never Die MySpace Video


What You Waiting For

CHORUS Colby
Baby I never seen someone wit your body
You make me wanna get this party started,
Hey baby come and tell me what's the score
Baby, baby, tell me, what chu, what chu, waiting for

CHORUS Mizz Nina
Baby I never seen someone with your body
You make me wanna get a little naughty
Hey baby come and get me it's all your's
Baby, baby, tell me, what chu, what chu, waiting for

VERSE
Colby
It's your birthday so tell me what you wanna do

Mizz Nina
It's my birthday I really wanna get with you

Colby
Drop the beat now and baby we can get it started

Mizz Nina
We'll go insane and take it to the after party
HOOK

Colby
So what's your name, hey baby what's your name, oh yeah

Mizz Nina
Sexy's my name, yeah sexy is my name

Colby
Ok, and what's your game, hey baby what's your game

Mizz Nina
Ok I like to play, I, I like to play, ay,

CHORUS Colby
Baby I never seen someone wit your body
You make me wanna get this party started,
Hey baby come and tell me what's the score
Baby, baby, tell me, what chu, what chu, waiting for

CHORUS Mizz Nina
Baby I never seen someone with your body
You make me wanna get a little naughty
Hey baby come and get me it's all your's
Baby, baby, tell me, what chu, what chu, waiting for

VERSE 2
Colby
Hey sexy girl from kuala la la lumpur

Mizz Nina
Hey baby that's me, I'll be on the dancefloor

Colby
I got chu a surprise, we're poppin up in vip

Mizz Nina
And if I ask nice can I take you home with me

HOOK x2

CHORUS Colby
Baby I never seen someone wit your body
You make me wanna get this party started,
Hey baby come and tell me what's the score
Baby, baby, tell me, what chu, what chu, waiting for

CHORUS Mizz Nina
Baby I never seen someone with your body
You make me wanna get a little naughty
Hey baby come and get me it's all your's
Baby, baby, tell me, what chu, what chu, waiting for


Bridge
Colby
Baby, lets get crazy, come on loose control, ol, ol

Mizz Nina
We're gonna tear up the after party, I know you want some more, oh, oh, oh

Colby
I wanna see ya, work that body, Drop it down real low, low, low

Mizz Nina
Hey baby, come and get me, tell me, what chu, what chu, what chu, what chu waiting for.

CHORUS Colby
Baby I never seen someone wit your body
You make me wanna get this party started,
Hey baby come and tell me what's the score
Baby, baby, tell me, what chu, what chu, waiting for

CHORUS Mizz Nina
Baby I never seen someone with your body
You make me wanna get a little naughty
Hey baby come and get me it's all your's
Baby, baby, tell me, what chu, what chu, waiting for

Teruskanlah...

I was listening to the radio the other day & heard this song...

The melody captured me instantly...I like...

Enjoy this song ;-)




Teruskanlah

Pernahkah kau bicara
Tapi tak di dengar
Tak di anggap
Sama sekali..

Pernahkan kau tak salah
Tapi disalahkan
Tak di beri
Kesempatan

Reff :
Kuhidup dengan siapa
Ku tak tau kau siapa
Kau kekasihku tapi
Orang lain bagiku

Kau dengan dirimu saja
Kau dengan duniamu saja
Teruskan lah.. Teruskan lah
Kau begitu

Kau tak butuh diriku
Aku patung bagimu
Cinta buta
Kebutuhan mu

Back to reff.

Hoo.. Hooo

Kau dengan dirimu saja
Kau dengan duniamu saja
Teruskan lah.. Teruskan lah
Kau.. kau begitu

Teruskan lah... teruskan lah..

A Day To Remember...

Today is the 40th day since my Dad's passed...

I tend to miss him at times when I'm so stressed up with work, life...etc...My Dad, the way I remembered him, is someone whom so likeable by others, funny, happy go lucky, cool & have a very great personality...he's a great man & he was a very great dad to me & always will...

We don't talk much...but we had a sixth sense on each other as we love each other very much...it feels weird on what I'm feeling...I felt his absence in my life... my brother & my mum too...When my Dad fall sick since his stroke & cancer, I always thought he would be strong to face it...but I forgotten that he was 68 yrs old & weak & have other complications in him...

It hurts me...knowing that I am feeling so guilty for everything that I didn't do for him while he was alive...I cried almost every single day...but I know eventually..I'm gonna be better in time...letting this feeling go wasn't easy...but I keep my Prayers strong for my Dad's soul, my mum's & my bro's emotional strength, & mine too...

Pray for His Soul to be Rest In Peace...Love you Dad, yesterday, today, tomorrow & eternity...wherever you maybe...I pray for your peace...


Your only daughter...

Hadir

Jiwa kacau berita derita
Titisan air mata mengkaburi
Saat ku sendiri
Menepis memori
Kau hadir

Buatku berdiri
Kuat Tenang menguasai
Suara menenangi
Sentuhan membelai
Kau singgah

Di mana sesat
Membawa diri
Tapi sentiasa kau tegas disisi
Mendengarmu kusedari
Kau datang

Sunyi yg ku rasa
Bunyi bisikan itu
Peluk sayang menjaga
Ciuman suara itu
Kau ada

Tiada kata
Apa daya kuasa
Yang hanya bilang
My Baby
Kau hadir membawa seribu satu makna...

Bukan sahaja kata
Tapi dalam kekalutan jiwa
Yang sedari ialah saya
Kau keluarga dihati
Kompas hidup kejalan yg terang

Hadirnya chemistry...
Hanya kita yang rasa...


Kau Hadir

12 April 2010

Say Goodnight, Not Goodbye...

I have been away all this while for almost 3 weeks...being alone, being away, being different...

My mind felt like it's bursting...! Too much to accept, too much to do, too much to decide...it's all juz too much!! Everything!!
....

Here I'm gonna release what I've been thru...slowly...and this is not easy for me to write...

The night before, 18 March was my colleague, Kak Ajie's bday...everyone & everything was A okay...evening arrives around 8.30pm, I was busy in the office working on the upgrading of cards for our bank's project...I received a rather distress call from my mum saying that she's quite worried abt my dad's deterioriating 'condition'...she had mentioned to me few days b4, that my dad had shown some signs of not feeling well, he started to feel the heavy dizzyness again, rejecting food that he eats or forced by my mum to eat...he doesn't want to talk, the way his eyes & mind blinded in his own world...& he start separated himself from my mum & bro...lots of things & signs that my Dad somehow knew he was about to 'leave' us...when my mum called me up that night, I was a little stressed up with work & all personal things that clouded me, I was abit rude to her...as if they complaining to me was like a burden for me to hear...I have said quite & rather harsh word to her...but my mum still keep on saying that my Dad is not in a good condition...so I told her I promise to flew back to KK earlier than I planned...I requested & forced my mum to pass the phone line to my dad but I heard my Dad on the background rejected my request...I was angered by that act...and I was HURT! Why didn't he wants to talk to me??? I talk with my mum for abit, then hung up...but my mind was raced by my dad's condition & since it was late, a good fren of mine, drive me home...she asked me what's going on with my dad...I told her everything...& somehow she knew what I'm going thru...she gave some words of encouragement...it did help...only for that night...I decided to sleep at my living room instead of the bedroom...I was unable to sleep well that night & all I can think of was my Dad...

Early morning on 19 March 2010 around 6.30am, after taking my bath...I heard my Aunty's hp rang...wow early...but I didn't think of anything bad...I went out from the bathroom & was walking towards the cloth hangers...but I heard Jenny was calling my name...I went to the living room...my Aunty had waken up & look kinda blur...Jenny told me that my bro called, ask to return the call...in my heart...the only thing that was racing was the word 'Dad'...when I called my bro...his first word was...'Cilla, ko relax dulu k? Ko lek dulu...', I deeply inhaled as much oxygen & said to him...' Just tell me...', He slowly informed me... 'Tadi mummy bangun, kami try kasi bangun daddy, tapi, bila kami pegang dia...Daddy sejuk sudah...Daddy tiada sudah...', I went silent...I heard my bro voice trying to say sumthing but I was practically started crying heavily & said loudly...'Why Dad? Why? Kenapa Daddy ndak mau ckp dgn saya semlm???' when I heard my bro was controlling his voice & emotion, trying to calm me...my Aunt went to my side & hugged me tightly...asking me to be strong & calm...all I wanna do that time was to cry & cry & cry...my cousin called me up...asking me just to pack up my stuff & go to KLIA asap...they will settle things about my flight to KK...I didn't think about anything & all I want to do was to go my mum's side...I told mostly all my good frens...about the news that got me...& heads to KLIA...

Got the earliest flight 9.20am...

**Am gonna stop here...writing about this surely gives the memories of everything I been thru...will continue again...when I'm ready...writing this entry makes hot tears rolling down so fast feel like I'm blinded with the tears non-stop falling... **

Daddy,

I love you...
I miss you since you're gone...
You mean the world to me...
I felt lost...

Felt Alone...
Abandoned...

But most of all...
I felt HURT...

If only I knew...

I would hold you in my arms...
I would take the pain away...

There's nothing I wouldn't do...
Just to hear your voice again...
Or look into your eyes...
And see you..
Looking back...

I wanna see you & meet you in my dreams...
But why can't I?

I really miss you & want to see you...
You dunno how much it hurts me when you passed...

I felt something in my heart was taken...
By force...

And I wasn't ready to let go...
I know your memories lives on...

But God,
Give me chance...

To see you...
To tell you things that I should have said long time ago...

I've long for your hugs & kisses...
Tell me that's everything okay...
Tell me everything's fine...

Why do you leave me here all by myself?
Let me see you once again...

Love,
Daddy's Only Little Girl