Waiting For The End...

When things gone terribly wrong, the thing that you hold up to the most...the things that u have sacrifice almost ur entire believe, time, effort & life...& at the end...you somehow never knew the time would come before you...everything will crash into pieces & break your heart in total shattered, crushed & you realise that you have done EVERYTHING to make it work but HOPELESS...

I guess when I thought what I truly believe can be realise & can come true...I didn't notice the broken pieces of my heart & all the trouble & mess I've gone thru was not up EQUALLY to the things & suffer I face right now...& the damaged was ultimately & clearly have reach above the limit & no good deeds or any other things could fix what have long been broken & healing was not an option anymore but to leave...

I'm 'leaving'...this broken heart will 'leave' & start a new era of her life...it is not easy nor it's simple nor it's great...but at least, I start a new life & I create my own unique history that I would be proud of...& my family will be satisfied...

I have broken my family's heart especially my mum & my late dad...it's never too late to change...I hope & I pray that God will be beside me to go thru it...

"God...guide me..."

Whatever it is, let me see the sign of your silence pardon & strength for me...

I pray

This song hit deeply in my heart & it crushed me as if I'm singing my life off...
Enjoy...

WAITING FOR THE END



This is not the end
This is not the beginning,
Just a voice like a riot
Rocking every revision
But you listen to the tone
And the violent rhythm
Though the words sound steady
Something empty's within 'em

We say Yeah!
With fists flying up in the air
Like we're holding onto something
That's invisible there,
'Cause we're living at the mercy of
The pain and the fear
Until we dead it, Forget it,
Let it all disappear.

Waiting for the end to come
Wishing I had strength to stand
This is not what I had planned
It's out of my control....

Flying at the speed of light
Thoughts were spinning in my head
So many things were left unsaid
It's hard to let you go...

(Oh!) I know what it takes to move on,
I know how it feels to lie,
All I wanna do
Is trade this life for something new
Holding on to what I haven't got

Sitting in an empty room
Trying to forget the past
This was never meant to last,
I wish it wasn't so...

(Oh!) I know what it takes to move on,

I know how it feels to lie,
All I wanna do
Is trade this life for something new
Holding on to what I haven't got

What was left when that fire was gone?
I thought it felt right but that right was wrong
All caught up in the eye of the storm
And trying to figure out what it's like moving on
And i don't even know what kind of things I've said
My mouth kept moving and my mind went dead
So, picking up the pieces, now where to begin?
The hardest part of ending Is starting again!!

All I wanna do
Is trade this life for something new
Holding on to what i haven't got...

This is not the end
This is not the beginning,
Just a voice like a riot
Rocking every revision
But you listen to the tone
And the violet rhythm
Though the words sound steady
Something empty's within 'em
(Holding on to what i haven't got)

We say Yeah!
With fists flying up in the air
Like we're holding onto something
That's invisible there,
'Cause we're living at the mercy of
The pain and the fear
Until we dead it, Forget it,
Let it all disappear
(Holding on to what i haven't got!)