Groovin Movin....Whine Up!

I LURRRVVEEEEE THIS SONG!!! Makes me wanna move my body & groovin'....

WooohhoooOOOoooooo!!! It's tonite baby! Tonite! ;D



Party Up

They can never have...Yesterday...

I fell in love with this song instantly when I first heard it few months back...
Heard this song again in the radio today & somehow I feel like I wanted to upload it in my blog...

My first thought about this song were a mixture of feeling & experiences that I have been thru...

For me, I have experience a lot & I mean it..LOTS of bad moments & memories...beyond anyone's imagination...& what I been thru definitely a unique one...But I do have some great memories & the best I ever had...

This year, I met some great frens, knowing other ppl, opening up my protective 'shell' of shyness (sikit lah ter'open'..hehe)... But along the way, the road & the journey of a great friendship experienced quite alot of bumps & rocky & unsteady path...some frens still survive the rough road, some just abandon it & some just leave without a trace...But whatever it is, it's a blessing in disguise...

Sometimes God gave us something beautiful & remarkable, but He take it all just in a sudden without a warning...leaving us feeling 'empty'...

Well...all I can say is that this song reminds me of my Yesterday's memories with all my loved ones...some of them may have be away & apart far from me...but they always close to my heart... ;)

Enjoy this song everyone... ;)

Yesterday Once More

Talk About Love...

Just now, after dinner with my family...I had a deep conversation with my mum about Love...

Hmm...it's not a topic that I can comfortably talk to mum that easy...but tonite her understanding towards my concern, my opinion & my worries was all heard...Love my mum for that...

She knows that I'm not easy to give my heart to anyone...my past love life was terrible and I told her that I always have a complication in my relationship coz it involves a guy of different religion...she is very serious abt that matter...& I know it same goes to me too... But I dunno why...always end up like that...

My mum talks abt uncertainty of relationship...coz I did share to her abt a good fren of mine whom just been brokenhearted by a guy & have a difficulty of recuperating...& how to deal with broken relationship...

My mum share some of her friends stories...married but divorced, married but separated, single but loving it, spinster but loving it, married but single parent, old flame came burning with passion to married ppl etc...She have load of friends who have some weird, hurtful & wildest experiences on relationship & love...

My mum told me...it's not that she said to entirely push a guy away...but always and she insist...ALWAYS give chance to d guy, a chance to know ppl & she said importantly, always give CHANCE to urself...

A chance to love, a chance of knowing & not to think abt it too much or push it too much...coz at the end of the day...if you give chance to love...although u find urself hurting ur heart...it is better to get hurt now rather than being hurtful bcoz of thinking abt 'What If...'

My mum advise me that love was meant to hurt you...bcos if it's not...u wouldn't feel truly or appreciate the love u have in ur heart...bcoz being in love, or in a relationship, or married, always there's sacrifice involved and it will stress u up...Being heartbroken is essential part in getting to know ppl...and she said even friends can broke a friend's heart...so u got nothing to lose if u try to be loved again or to experience love...it's just that always think & aware abt ur consequences...and to be always realize and know what u're doing...never do careless action or thinking cos it will hurt much more worst & it will caused us to think all things negatively & down as a result, depression...when u come to that extend, there's nobody can help u with that but urself to recover back... ;)

My mum gave great advices to me, she won't put pressure on me abt getting a guy in my life...it's just that she's worried if a guy that I will meet can really take good care of me or not & what future may hold for us...

I know it's scary & risky...and I know my mum worried & think too much abt me too...but I hope I could show & prove to them that I will be okay...whether I am alone or have someone...

Hehehehe...it's a nice feeling sharing this story with my mum... I feel close to her somehow...

LOVE YOU MUM! ;)



Love talk

Always On Your Side...

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I started to love this song when I saw Table For Three series...
Just heard it from MTV

Enjoy... ;)


ALWAYS ON YOUR SIDE

My yesterdays are all boxed up and neatly put away
But every now and then you come to mind
Cause you were always waiting to be picked to play the game
But when your name was called, you found a place to hide

When you knew that I was always on your side
Well everything was easy then, so sweet and innocent
But your demons and your angels reappeared

Leavin' all the traces of the man you thought you'd be
Leavin' me with no place left to go from here
Leavin' me so many questions all these years
But is there someplace far away, someplace where all is clear
Easy to start over with the ones you hold so dear
Or are you left to wonder, all alone, eternally

This isn't how it's really meant to be
No it isn't how it's really meant to be
Well they say that love is in the air, but never is it clear,
How to pull it close and make it stay

Butterflies are free to fly, and so they fly away
And I'm left to carry on and wonder why
Even through it all, I'm always on your side

But is there someplace far away, someplace where all is clear
Easy to start over with the ones you hold so dear
Or are we left to wonder, all alone, eternally

But is this how it's really meant to be
No is it how it's really meant to be
Well if they say that love is in the air, never is it clear
How to pull it close and make it stay

If butterflies are free to fly, why do they fly away
Leavin' me to carry on and wonder why
Was it you that kept me wondering through this life
When you know that I was always on your side


**Lately, I'm lazy to write my story...so I will download some songs that match my mood for the day** ;D

*Some more I feel so happy today...! Happy, happier & happiest!!!! Wooohhhooo!! ;D *

Cheers!


Just Me

Yang Terbaik...

Ohhh...Ohhhhh wowo...

Ku selalu memikirkan tentang kita
Apa punya harapan yang dikejar
Kerna aku masih penuh rasa ragu
Melihat kau seperti tak bersungguh


Jika kau mencinta
Berikanlah kurasa


Korus
Diriku dah berikan yang terbaik
Dan bukannya nak mengungkit
Siapa benar siapa salah
Siapa menang siapa kalah


Dah berikan yang terbaik
Memaksa hati merisik
Mungkin kau bukan teman hidup
Yang terbaik untukku


Memang benar ku amat mencintai mu
Dan harapkan di sana pun begitu
Tetapi kau tak luahkan perasaan
Apa lagi memberikan ku kasih


Jika kau mencinta
Berikanlah kurasa


Diriku dah berikan yang terbaik
Dan bukannya nak mengungkit
Siapa benar siapa salah
Siapa menang siapa kalah


Dah berikan yang terbaik
Memaksa hati merisik
Mungkin kau bukan teman hidup
Yang terbaik untukku

I love this song...dunno why...the starting of the song sounded sweet...ahahaha...not bcoz of Marsha is a Sabahan I wanted to support her but..this song sounded cutee!!

Lyrics somehow ada jugak lah touched my heart abit..ehemmm... ;)

Enjoy ya! ;p

Yang Terbaik

Fallin' For You...

In my love life, there are times when I fall for the wrong guy...but it's normal right? As long as it doesn't harm me in any way...so why should I not be happy? I should be happy...right? Though he doesn't know my true feelings...It's enough to know that he cares for me...

I dun ask for more...but if he can give my everything...I wouldn't hesitate take accept dear... ;)

Coz I think I've fallin for you...This song reminds me of him...if only I could tell you...



Enjoy this song...

**Sometimes, in my blog, if I'm lazy updating it..I will just post a song to express my feeling that time...& now this is it...**


Keep Fallin'

My Life...My Journey...

These few days spending time with my family...esp my parents...I lived a very calm & peaceful time...though with babysitting Baby Echa is very tiring & I constantly got migrain & all (seriously taking care a baby is damn difficult, I just wonder what if I have my own children...huuuu scary! ;p but exciting scary...) other than that, I'm all good here...

I wanted a calm life..wanted to be far from trouble...I know in life if we don't experience any bumps on the road...that wouldn't be called life isn't it? What I meant is to be far away from the same old trouble that kept bothering me for years...I just want a different kind of life...where I can smile, be happy, do things I like, enjoying my spare times with my old frens again...& my family...

I enjoy my own quiet little time & space...being far from my family...I want my own time...I don't like to be watched or been stopped to do anything that I want...Because of these, I'm not sure if moving back permanently to my hometown would be an easy transition for me...coz I know it would be hard for me...but I think it will make everyone happy...especially my parents...I know some ppl asked me whether this is what I want or what other ppl want...

For me, I do things that will make everyone around me happy...I don't usually make a decision that really makes me or myself happy...coz I am more happier when seeing people that I loved & cared about are the ones happier than me...coz I could sincerely smile & really feel the greatest when I saw them happy, smiling & laughing...call me stupid or people pleaser...but this is me...my personality... nothing can change that... ;)

I've been taking care of Baby Echa & it's really killing my patience (at the same time, I learn to be patient to babies)...but I feel so glad when I saw Echa's smile & understand what I say to her...sometimes I feel so emo jugak when she started to cry...coz I just melt away everytime hearing her crying...huhuhu...motherly instinct..? Maybe coz I really wanted a baby right now...hahaha...I think lots of ppl know abt it already...hmmm... ;)

There's a mix feeling that fills in my heart & mind...couldn't describe it really in depth...but here, everytime b4 I go to bed, I've actively pray for myself to find true happiness & for God to show me the right path for me, coz I couldn't find my own way without God's guidance for me...somehow, I felt lost sense of direction in my life...I know what could make me happy but most of d time, I feel so down...not bcoz of my ownslef..but some ppl in my life caused me to be unhappy & I let them ruin my life...I know I shouldn't be doing blaming other ppl coz I choose my own life..that's why I need God's light to show me the right path for me... ;)

God Bless Me...My life, my family, my dear frens...


**At this moment, I honestly can say that I missed some of my close frens in KL, somehow, thinking of them makes me so warm inside knowing they're thinking of me too...it's gonna be hard to be far from my KL life..butI must try...**


Transition

Two Is Better Than One...

This song is a very romantic song...I lurveee it so so much... ;)

And it is indeed Two Is Better Than One...
I love this video clip bcos my favourite movie combine with the song...is just plain perfect...!

If I could ever experience this kind of Love...I would never let it go...

Enjoy!





I remember what you wore on the first day
You came into my life and I thought "Hey, you know, this could be something"
'Cause everything you do and words you say
You know that it all takes my breath away
And now I'm left with nothing

So maybe it's true
That I can't live without you
Maybe two is better than one
There's so much time
To figure out the rest of my life
And you've already got me coming undone
And I'm thinking two is better than one

I remember every look upon your face
The way you roll your eyes
The way you taste
You make it hard for breathing
'Cause when I close my eyes and drift away
I think of you and everything's okay

I'm finally now believing
That maybe it's true
I can't live without you
Maybe two is better than one
There's so much time
To figure out the rest of my life
And you've already got me coming undone
And I'm thinking two is better than one
Yeah, yeah

I remember what you wore on the first day
You came into my life and I thought,"Hey,
"Maybe it's true
That I can't live without you
Maybe two is better than one

There's so much time
To figure out the rest of my life
And you've already got me coming undone
And I'm thinkingI can't live without you
'Cause, baby, two is better than one
There's so much time
To figure out the rest of my life
But I'll figure it out
When it's all said and done
Two is better than one
Two is better than one

Back In BKI...My Land Below D Wind...My HomeTown...

Wow...it's been quite awhile since my last update...?

Been pretty busy last week with work & stuffs until I can't find time to update my blog...last minute projects, last minute stuff to do..etc..

Since last friday, I've arrived at my beloved hometown after almost half year did not go back....and how much I really miss seeing my parents, my bro & my small but very close family around my house...

Did some catch up with my parents, lil bro, aunts, cousins & even niece...ceh.. ;)I love their company so much...got some deep talks with my parents abt my decision on going back to KK permanently...I know I have been giving them a hard time thinking of what had happened to me lately in KL...We have discussed about the matters & I understand why they always finds it hard to see me far apart from them & all things happening to me...I make them worried too much...but I think I have grown quite matured lately this few months...and I know & very much aware on what I'm doing...

I think my mum have 2 things that she worries about; Me finding the right love & carry on...and Me finding the difficult love & carry on...It's hard to explain...My mum kinda worried that I haven't found someone in my life, and kinda worried about me finding the wrong type of man & act stupid...but setting me up with a guy of their choice also won't make me happier either...so I know my consequences are...

Converting to a different religion bcos of Love is not an option in my family eyes..& also to me...it's difficult for me when I've involved with a guy which have different religion & believe from me...but I'm learning to accept this...

Well, enough abt that...here's another part of my life that never ends...my relationship with my friends...yes, I have quite a lot of friends la sort of, but only few people that I have attached with that given enormous impact to me will be remembered and stayed beside me...

Friendship, Love, Relationship...? Well, I could write a book on that title coz yes, this year is a special year indeed...I learn the BIGGEST lesson in friendship, love & relationship...

We claimed a friendship is an everlasting gift from God but...little did we know how a great ship like this can be sunken deep into the sea, just by ONE ACT of SELFISHNESS & PURE STUPIDITY of a person...& in friendship, once there's a breach, things or situation can never be undone & it will change the course...no matter how badly we want things back to normal...

We claimed that love is something powerful & magical that can happen to anybody...things which involves our fragile heart that could easily fall for the wrong person for the wrong reason...we try to heal & mend our heart by saying & listening all comforting words...but sorry...TRUTH HURTS & it SUCKS!! Believe me, if u wanna be a tough & matured person, LEARN baby, LEARN!! Learn from our past mistakes & don't repeat!!! Never REPEAT! Coz if it's repeating, that means u'r not listening or thinking...& that will give us another greater gift...REGRET! We do things in our life...never regret on our decision...coz we know what's best for us...

We claimed that relationship is a connection between one individual with another...well, I got no problem in this part coz I dun have to... ;) Relationship is like having someone great around you to share your happiness & kindness & all sort of things we can share...that is what tied us, bond us, & in a way building a relationship with anyone...someone we care about & love...

There has been quite alot I experienced for these couple of mths...& I am learning the Biggest Lesson in my life this year...Praise God...I have time to improve myself...& BE A BETTER PERSON...

GOD BLESS!

**This is only part of my luahan hati...there's more from where it came from...part 1 end**



My Dark 1

It's Ur Birthday...You deserved The Best!!!

Just wanna write down here that...

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MY FREN...!!!

Ur last 2*th birthday!! Cepat2 kahwin bleh tak? hahaha!!
**Jgn marah u....cepat lagi umur tu meningkat...** ;p

Btw, it's ur birthday...u deserved the best dear...

Today is actually one of my good fren's birthday...I have planned to give her the cake & gift on the eve of her birthday to suprise her...

It's not much but I hope u'll love it dear...

Happy Birthday Ya! Enjoy ur day with ur loved ones...

Luv ya fren! Muacckkss!!
Thanks for every way that you help me... ;)
I owe it to you...


Frens Forever

If I Told You...

Being in an open relationship makes me wonder if its help me much...okay when I'm with him...it was nice...cos he says all the right things to make me feel mushed up...but in fact, in my heart...I had a secret feeling for someone else...a guy whom always look out for me... ;)

I wanna wrote a confession here...sumthing which I've been kept for quite sometimes already...

I can't remember the 1st time we met...
I also couldn't remember the 1st word you said...
I can't remember the 1st time we've grown close...
You were a friend...you were sweet & gentle...
You're stunning...beautiful...& pure kindness...

You were great...
You helped me in a way...
Making me feel that I am worthy...
As a lady, I wanted someone to reassure me...
And you make it so easy by showing ur concern on me...

I feel kinda dizzy & mushy when you're around...
Just by one look...you melt away my heart...
Not sure what I feel for you...
Was it for love?
Or just good friends?

Sometimes I wanted to say it out loud...
To say to you that I have feelings for you...
This feeling is wonderful...
But I don't want things to change if I told you...

Hey you...
I just want you to know...
That my feelings for you would never change...
I hope you will be my someone...
A special person in my life...

I don't want you to push urself away...
I don't want you to care less abt me too...
Coz with you I had a 'different' strength...
& you give me a booster kick in my life...

I hope that on one sweet day...
If I told you...
My feelings for you...
You'd smile & held my hands close to your heart...

Though it may not be forever...
I just wanna enjoy the moment with you...
& it would be more than enough...
To make me fly high...

Knowing that what if you had the same feeling for me...




Cilla

Spending Greatest Time With You Dear...

I think I haven't been spending time with my blog lately...well I guess it's just because I've been filling my time with lots of other thing rather than stuck in front of the laptop...besides gymming, I go for movies, go out with my close friends etc...

Last thursday, after BJ & Pump class @ FF MBF, I've actually plan for a 'Night'away from my problematic life here...I went out with a friend of mine...hmmm ;) it was so damn wonderful & I never felt that way before...I do went for some previous night outings before but it couldn't compare to what I enjoy most that night...hehe... hmmm ;)

My friend pick me up @ KLCC, went back to the house to freshen up...thereafter we went to d famous D'sara Uptown favourite youngsters hangout... Thought of dieting, but when my friend ordered Chicken Chop...aiya...ok la...one time only hehe...

We had great talks & laugh but I was distrupted with 'some' incidents...pyschotic sms & calls...but I've been so calm cos my friend really 'helping' me by easing me...I love you so much for that dear...

We talk quite a lot abt our relationship, friends & life...didn't even realise that it was almost 2am already...gosh! My friend suggest that we go for KL joyride at night...it's been so long I haven't been to KL joyride...& when I get d chance to do it...it was the best feeling ever...As my friend driving...I clapped my hands happily few times as if it was my first time doing it...Funny so...But I enjoy the moments...My friend ask me if I'm happy few times...Well dear, sometimes..happiness unable to be describe...but you do make me feel so good that time...I can't really show it to you...but I think you know how I feel that night... ;)

After the joyride, we went back to my friend's place...well me, feeling kinda akward for staying at other people's house like always but..somehow my friend's place reminds me on my good old days when I was still in College staying at Ridzuan Condo at Sunway...somehow I miss the place so much...

Anyhow, it was around 4am already...still need to go work the next day..thought of having talks but we didn't instead... :)

Well, it was a great night...I enjoyed our night away...the talks & laughs & we shared lots of common things together...sweetness!!

I hope we can do it again someday...I want to spend time with great friends...cos it really makes me happy to hangout with other people...

This is dedicated to you...Luv u... U know what you have done for me...Thanks...

xoxo

Cill

Sometimes It's Just Never Ends...

Last night, I went to see New Moon for the 3rd time in less than a week...huhu...

But this time with my 3 best girlfriends...(u know who u r...muahh)

For this time, my emotions were quite okay already...I didn't cry coz the first 2 times I went, I cried the ending part where Jacob had to hear Bella said, "It's always gonna be Him (Edward)..." It crushes me when you could see Jacob's face so deeply hurt & his heart broken in hearing Bella's word...enough on the mushy stuff...But honestly for me, I would go for Jacob I guess...Why?

Okay, basically for me, it doesn't really matter if you are a team Edward or Jacob...coz when it comes down to real life, we, ladies...had a lot different personalities...each one of us have our own "Edward" or "Jacob" in some extend of our life...but we always choose the one who is more compatible with us...Love is a fantasy that we realise it to be true...Compatible means being together will complement & complete each other...

that's how Love turns to something extraodinary and ended with happy endings...you have got to work it...In movie terms, off course its already written in the book, the author decides how it ends...but in real life...we make our own endings...our own so called 'drama' but...we could never follow stories like this Twilight saga that's not even REAL....sorry for the Twilight fans okay...no offence but it's just reality...& reality bites!

Enough abt Love...

I had some argument with a fren, which makes me think that I had enough of this...I had been patient with you for this few months...I have been so supportive of you, being there for you...but all you can think of is the things that I did that you don't approve of...what's the big deal??? Even worse, u were blaming it on my other frens...WTH?

I want my life to be different from you...I just need my own space, don't u get it? Don't mess with my life anymore coz I enjoy my life now...being able to be free...but u wanna say all the hurtful things especially for frens being around me & help me so much? They have their own dark sides...but that doesn't mean I'll be influenced by the likes of them...coz I know how to choose what's right or wrong for me...u never listen to any of my advices but now u expect me to listen to u? This is not a one way street babe! Slap urself & wake up! Dun expect me to be someone whom u want me to be...please understand & I'm begging u please don't make our life more miserable than this...enough with all ur wrong decisions in your life but don't control mine...coz sooner or later I couldn't take it any longer...

To my other frens...they have been great to me... :) they are... I just wanna let you know that I loved you guys so much...thanks for everything...


**I cried terribly last night feeling hurtful for the things u said abt me & my fren** Just stop...or things get really ugly...


Cry

Take My Breath Away...

I heard this song last nite...

I love to sang this song in Karaoke...
I like Jessica Simpson version of this song coz..it's more fresh sounded... hehe :)
No offence to the original singer though... :)

Anyhow this song reminds me of someone who really take my breath away...he is someone that could make me... hmmm... can't say the word really...hmmm....he take my breath away just by looking... huhuhu ;)

and his sweet gestures, talking & caring...it's kinda like...hish...no word could describe lah...hmmm...thats all lah yer... :p






Do enjoy this song...



Cilla