Lagu Kita...

Love this song so much...

Our Song... ;)





Lagu Kita - Aizat

Deras hatiku berdetar
Di langit aku terlihat kamu
Terang malam,teman kita
Dengan angin meniup sayu

Ku petik gitar akustik ini
Dengan harapan dia mendengar
Melodi indah yang ku cipta
Hanya untuk luahkan rinduku padanya

Dan aku terus,
Menyanyi lagu ini untukmu,
Walau berjuta mendengar,
Lagu ini hanya untukmu,
Arah hidup kita,
Digambar bintang di angkasa
Dan berkelip melukis cinta
Terciptalah lagu kita

Hanya Cerita

Hadirnya cerita

Amat lah dekat dihati ini…
Perit…pilu & terasa ada kehilangan…
Mereka yg lain takkan merasai apa yg dilalui…
Segala cerita menjadi yg terindah dlm kenangan…

Terasa seperti di syurga…
Suatu ketika dulu semuanya ceria…
Bagaikan telah ditulis…
Cerita kita…

Kenapa terpaksa dilalui…
Bagaikan malapetaka yg tak sudah…
Tangisan tak terkira…
Percakaran yg tak dijangka…
Keutuhan hati tiada batasan membuktikan…

Ku berharap
Tulus hati ini…
Akan menyakinkan semua…
Semoga Tuhan mendengar doaku…

Kenapa perlu ditempuh…
Bagaikan tembok China yg keras…
Halangan yg membuatkan aku lemah…
Tak terdaya bila kehilanganmu

Aku tak biasa bila kau tiada disisi…
Tapi ada kah aku yg kau pilih?
Dan tiada pilihan kedua…
Kerana Ku Ada Kamu…saja…



Signed,
Cilla

Our Differences...Seperti Hitam & Putih

Our differences makes us closer...

Perbezaan,
Persefahaman yg mengeratkan
Dua dunia yg jauh berbeza
Mengerti ada hadirnya hitam dan putih
Sentiasa ada panca roba

Yang hairannya
Kenapa lebih tarikan
Dan tak terdaya menolaknya
Kau percaya ada chemistry nya

Aku percaya takdir
Dan yakin dengan Dia
Temukan & bicara kita
Di satu hari yg mulia

Selepas 1 Syawal menjelma
Aku temui Sinar
Dalam kegelapan
Hanya merasai kekuatan

Memang akan bertahan...selamanya
Kerana apa?

Aku percaya dgn kita...


;-)

Signed
Cilla

Hari Yang Tak Begitu Ok...

Hari ni bukan lah hari yg terbaik I lalui mcm biasa...lately I'm quite happy with my life...

Kadang2...ada masa kita di atas, ada masa kita di bawah...pagi2 lagi I was disturbed by someone yg I have on & off situation...dia dtg tanpa diundang...kitorg berbincang sekejap even I dah kt ofis...

Byk benda hanging, problem dtg (salah sendiri, tanggung sendiri) & I feel sgt2 menyesal to wat happen to us & wat we put ourselves into...

I cuba tenangkan diri...with somethings that I arranged for a treat tat evening...I control myself not to cry...but I cried almost on every applications I was doing tat time...menahan diri drpd org ofis nampak I...

Maybe I really need to relax & calm down myself...kdg2 I rasa I tak dihargai, tapi sape yg tahu? Sape yg merasa & menyelami hati I...? Hanya diri I sendiri...

I comfort diri I sendiri, pujuk hati I utk menerima apa saja...
I sedar diri I sape...kdg2 lupa... So...Maafkan diri ini...kalau salah utk bereaksi sebegitu...

Hari ni I puasa...walaupun minum jugak masa pagi bfast sbb nak makan ubat high blood & minum coffee masa tghari...still I masih kira puasa lah...cuma tak penuh... :)

Mlm ni sambil mendengar bunyi angin yg agak kuat diluar rumah (mcm nak hujan ribut jer...) tapi suhu kat rumah ni mcm sauna pula...panas..hopefully hujan mlm ni menemani I kat rumah sorang2...

Tak makan dinner penuh malam ni...cuma makan tinggalan buah mangga muda yg I beli 3 packet haritu...& seri muka yg I beli petang td...sambil minum milo, blogging... makan mangga dgn cili campur garam (harap2 tak gastric jer..) mmg best...

Kadang2 susah gak nak mulakan penulisan...limitation yg I hadapi...but I think ok lah kot skrg ni....boleh lah menulis benda2 yg tak menyinggung mana2 pihak...

Apa yg saya tulis hanya lah utk luahan perasaan diri...& utk reminder pada diri ini tentang kehidupan yg dilalui...belajar untuk menjadi seorang yg matang & berdikari bukan sesuatu yg mudah...byk kene lalui...byk kene bersabar...sama2 lah kita melaluinya...bukan senang nak berubah dari mengada hingga tak mengada... :)

Btw, skrg dah pun hujan lebat siap kilat sambung menyambung...mcm nak panah I pun ader..astro hilang terus...so mata pun dah redup2 ni, tanda nak modop aka tido ler...
Esok kene bangun pagi awal, nak gi keje...kesian saturday kene keje sorang2...tapi takper...janji OT masuk lebih bulan depan yer... ;)

zzZZZZzzzZZZzzzzz......


Signed,
Cilla

...3 Series & Time Off...

With me, going to the world of 3-series...

I'm gonna take a time-off to travel...hopefully it's gonna happen...
I need to look for the inner-peace of myself, to know where I wanna be...really finding what I could do more in my life...

*fingers crossed*

May God Guide me...


Signed,
Cilla

...Aku Tak Biasa...Ku Tak Sanggup...

Aku tak biasa, bila tiada kau disisiku...
Aku tak biasa bila ku tak mendengar suaramu...
Aku tak biasa, bila tak memeluk dirimu...
Aku tak biasa, bila ku tidur tanpa belaianmu...
Aku tak biasa...


Haruskah aku menangis lagi
Ku tak sanggup bila aku jauh dari dirimu
Ku tak sanggup bila aku jauh....

...I'm Lucky....

It's a feeling that I can't really describe with words or actions...

It's just a simple word to understand...LUCKY...
Easy word to say, but it's what the heart felt is what matters the most...

I say this a lot of times...I proudly announce it to the whole world...

...I THANK GOD FOR YOU...


:)

Ku Ada Kamu.... 'forever & always...'

I will always remember this song...& I will always remember you...

Thank you for this song...

Thank you for being a great person & wonderful that you are...
Despite all, everytime I hear this song, I can see you... ;-)

Be good, be strong...





Ku Ada Kamu

Di kala ku kehilangan di dalam kegelapan,
Kau suluhkan sinar petunjuk,
Di kala ku kesedihan,
kau ukirkan senyuman,
Dengan penuh sabar memujuk,

Engkau menyambut tiap kali aku terjatuh.

Andai hari esok langit akan runtuh,
Tabahlah menjunjung bersamaku,
Andai hari esok dunia gelora,
Takkan ku gemuruh selagi ku ada kamu.

Di kala aku tak pasti,
Kau tampil dengan berani,
Membimbing agar lebih yakin,
Dan bila hidup penuh soalan,
Kau berikan jawapan,
Melengkap semua kekurangan...

Engkau menyambut tiap kali aku terjatuh,

Andai hari esok langit akan runtuh,
Tabahlah menjunjung bersamaku,
Andai hari esok dunia gelora,
Takkan ku gemuruh selagi ku ada kamu.

Tidak mungkin diri ini mampu,
Hidup tanpa doronganmu,

Andai hari esok langit akan runtuh,
Tabahlah menjunjung bersamaku,
Andai hari esok dunia gelora,
Takkan ku gemuruh selagi ku ada kamu.




;-)

...Sungguh Tak Ku Sangka...

Hari ni, hari special sangat2...ntah kenape...

Mula2 camni citernyer...hari ni terpaksa stay kat rumah sebab contractors nak dtg buat some renovation for d ceiling...So tgh2 tunggu tu, I open my facebook yg agak lama tak dibukak...ye lah, internet down for one week! I dah naik crazy...!! So I took d time utk tgok2 lah my frens page...dari KK, KL, Australia, London, America...ramai lah...tetiber terbukak pula page sorang jejaka ni...someone yg saya minati sudah hampir 2 tahun...dia sememangnyer seorang jejaka yg perfect di mata I lah...

Tapi ntah lah...takde harapan untuk I nie...sape lah I...bukan taste dia...Tapi put aside tu story...I see on his profile & saw he update one of Ungu's Songs...one of the song from Ungu that I love so much...tak sangka nyer....dia pun minat gak dengar lagu Indon...hehehehe!

Well anyway, biar lah saya pun upload lagu tu kat sini...

To everyone who reads my blog...this song is for Y.O.U!! Sesaper jer lah kan... I tak kisah u saper, kenal atau tak, musuh ker kawan, benci atau sayang, tak suker ker suker, mengada ker tak mengada...ehem2... hanya untuk kamu...!!!

**Mode giler2 activated**




Ungu - Percaya Padaku

Aku tak tahu apa yang ku rasakan
Dalam hatiku saat pertama kali
Lihat dirimu, melihatmu
Seluruh tubuhku terpaku dan membisu
Detak jantungku berdebar tak menentu
Sepertinya aku tak ingin berlalu

Reff:
Berikan cintamu juga sayangmu
Percaya padaku ku kan menjagamu
Hingga waktu menjemputku

Ku berikan cintaku juga sayangku
Percaya padaku ku kan menjagamu
Hingga waktu menjemputku

Saat ku tahu kau akan pergi jauh
Izinkan aku tuk selalu menantimu
Untuk katakan ku ingin dirimu (ingin dirimu)

Agar kau tahu betapa ku terlalu
Mencintaimu aku akan menunggu
Hingga dirimu kembali untukku

Repeat reff

Tolonglah aku bagaimana diriku
Ungkapkan itu rasa yang membelenggu
Dalam hatiku ku cinta padamu

Repeat reff

Berikan cintamu juga sayangmu
Percaya padaku ku kan menjagamu
Hingga waktu menjemputku



p/s : It's interesting to know that he loves this song too....hehehehe... ;) ...a crush...it's just a crush...

;)

...Should I or Should I Not...

Who cares anyway...

I don't want to be bothered by anything...anymore...

Reminding you as you always knew, I would do...
You know what I want to say...Right?

Yeah I know....blah blah blah...I don't think u're listening to me...but you know how I feel...

I hope it's enough...from me to you...always...

Ruang Rindu...

Just love this song since I watched the Indonesian telenovela...quite some time ago...love it...it was quite difficult to find the song... ;)

Enjoy this...



Ruang Rindu - Letto

Dedaun yang ikut mengalir lembut
Terbawa sungai ke ujung mata
Dan aku mulai takut terbawa cinta
Menghirup rindu yang sesakkan dada

Jalanku hampa dan kusentuh dia
Terasa hangat oh didalam hati
Kupegang erat dan kuhalangi waktu
Tak urung jua kulihatnya pergi

Tak pernah kuragu dan slalu kuingat
Kerlingan matamu dan sentuhan hangat
Ku saat itu takut mencari makna
Tumbuhkan rasa yg sesakkan dada

Chorus 2x:
Kau datang dan pergi oh begitu saja
Semua kutrima apa adanya
Mata terpejam dan hati menggumam
Di ruang rindu kita bertemu

Bertemu





Kau tau....
..............Di Ruang Rindu, Kita Bertemu....................

Songs of Our Lives...

Since the beginning, from my earliest childhood fond memories...I love music...I love songs...& ultimately I found my so called talent...singing & playing music (literally lah..hehe)

My hero (my late dad)...enrolled me to play organs...which actually I was more keen on playing the piano or guitar...well, I was just a mere 6 yrs old little girl whom dreams so high to become 'somebody' in this life...more like, finding the purpose of my life...

I'm not sure why, but deep down since I was a little girl, I was pretty damn sure I'm going to be a superstar...playing music in front of people...entertaining people in music industry...well that thing didn't actually came true...look where I am now...working in the banking & finance industry which really took my exciting life for almost 7yrs now...damn that is long! It feels just like in a long term relationship...but what's the best thing came out of it? I look at myself...What did I accomplished? Have I found the IT of my life...?

7 yrs ago, when I got my job, I was like so proud of myself..working in a bank! Yeay! Big $$! Security! Excitement! Fun! Arrogant! Selfish! Too Proud...now here I am, feeling rather hopeless...someone ask me about my pay..."How's your pay at the moment? It must be at least RM*K...right? That's great!"

How I wish they knew...money is not everything...I must say I have pretty okay life after my upside twirl & twisted life for about 5 - 6 yrs ago...where debt here & there....unmanageable finance & stretched budget...

If I see where I am now...yes, there is good coming out of it...but there is a price to pay...I lost my Dad, I lost my best friend, I lost trust, I lost a lot of things...but most of all, I lose my faith...I felt lost in believing in myself...

How am I going to stand up again...after the bumps & confusing windy road I have took? Can I have the great life I used to have again? I want to fight for my happiness & believing in myself again...have faith in God more...

I'm not someone whom can be strong to face the obstacles I face down the road...I always need constant guidance...but not the bossy, bully or whining kind of way...I need a proper suitable guidance...

How I wish I could get it back....

I know there's gotta be more to this life I'm in...How am I going to find it...? What I should do...? I'm going on my 30s...& I don't think this life is enough for me...I want to do something that kept me going...something I passionate about & not the ones I'm settling right now...not the thing I content or comforting for me...I need more, I want more to this life...



Stacie Orrico (There's Gotta Be) More To Life

Yea, yea
Oh ohh, yeaaa

I've got it all, but I feel so deprived
I go up, I come down and I'm emptier inside
Tell me what is this thing that I feel like I'm missing
And why can't I let it go

There's gotta be more to life...
Than chasing down every temporary high to satisfy me
Cause the more that I'm...
Tripping out thinking there must be more to life
Well it's life, but I'm sure... there's gotta be more
Than wanting more

I've got the time and I'm wasting it slowly
Here in this moment I'm half way out the door
Onto the next thing, I'm searching for something that's missing

There's gotta be more to life...
Than chasing down every temporary high to satisfy me
Cause the more that I'm...
Tripping out thinking there must be more to life
Well it's life, but I'm sure... there's gotta be more
I'm wanting more.....

I'm always waiting on something other than this
Why am I feelin' like there's something I missed.....

There's gotta be more to life...
Than chasing down every temporary high to satisfy me
Cause the more that I'm...
Tripping out thinking there must be more to life
Well it's life, but I'm sure... there's gotta be more to life...

Than chasing down every temporary high to satisfy me
Cause the more that I'm...
Tripping out thinking there must be more to life
Well it's life, but I'm sure... there's gotta be more to life....life..
ohh...more to life..life..theres gotta be more to life...
ohh...more to life....theres gotta be more to life...ohhh





P/S: I wish I could find it...I know God has other plans for me...not this...

Bahagia...

Kadang2 kita harap orang akan bole terima kita seadanya...tidak kira sempurna ataupun tidak....

Kalau dilihat dari mata kasar, mungkin kehadiran kita hanya menyusahkan...tapi sebenarnya, diri ini cuma ingin lihat kebahagiaan kamu tercapai & hanya berdoa yg terbaik...untuk kamu....

Buka hati untuk mempercayai....tutup buku pada yg keruh....
Mulakan hidup yg baru...

Bersama-sama....

I miss Him...

I miss my dad...

Yesterday...I felt so sick, I lied on my bed, suddenly he across my mind...I felt so low...lots of stuff & dilemma & drama happening in my life right now...

About a year plus had passed, I still remember the memories vividly...I just wish I could see him in my dreams again...

Dad...I love you & how I missed your laugh & your funny bits... You always know how to show your awesomeness...

Miss You Daddy...