The Best Kind of Friendship...

Have you ever feel that you have been touched by great frens that you never expect them to come your way & realise that you are just among those few whom are so lucky to have been given wonderful gift of life...? Have you ever felt that you have a friend that really make your life so full of exciting time? Be it something sad, happy, crazy, fun & just all other things you never imagine...? I have one... ;-)

You are one of the Great Kind of Friendship that I treasured the most...
I dun wanna say much here... coz sometimes what we feel inside is undescribable & no one would understand...

But all I wanna say is, sharing stories, be with your friend in their times of need & enjoy each other's company is a combination of great trait that I experience with you...

Sometimes, we don't see each other every single day & we seldom talk every single time, you have your own other circle of friends, me, well, I have my other 'small' circle of friends too...haha...it's okay...

Coz sometimes the lesser you do, the more closer I feel...coz everytime we had the chance to meet up & chit chatting, I'm not sure why but we can talk & talk & talk for hours from morning til late night til early morning...until kering tekak...ngahaha! Why is it really? I find it fascinating & I like it!

Never there be a dull moment whenever with you fren...never... ;-)

Well, You know who U are dear...
This entry is for you...short & simple... :-)
And this song is for you....

Enjoy!




You had my heart
and we'll never be world apart
Maybe in magazines
but you'll still be my star
Baby cause in the Dark
You can see shiny Cars
And that's when you need me there
With you I'll always share
Because

[CHORUS]
When the sun shines
We’ll shine together
Told you I'll be here forever
Said I'll always be your friend
Took an oath
I'mma stick it out 'till the end
Now that it's raining more than ever
Know that we still have each other
You can stand under my Umbrella
You can stand under my Umbrella
(Ella ella eh eh eh)
Under my umbrella
(ella ella eh eh eh)
Under my umbrella
(ella ella eh eh eh)
Under my umbrella
(ella ella eh eh eh eh eh eh)

[VERSE 2]
These fancy things,will never come in between
You're part of my entity
Here for Infinity
When the war has took it's part
When the world has dealt it's cards
If the hand is hard
Together we'll mend your heart
Because ...

[CHORUS]
When the sun shines
We'll shine together
Told you I'll be here forever
Said I'll always be your friend
Took an oath
I'mma stick it out 'till the end

Now that it's raining more than ever
Know that we still have each other
You can stand under my Umbrella
You can stand under my Umbrella
(Ella ella eh eh eh)
Under my umbrella
(ella ella eh eh eh)
Under my umbrella
(ella ella eh eh eh)
Under my umbrella
(ella ella eh eh eh eh eh eh)

[BRIDGE]
You can run into my Arms
It's okay don't be alarmed
(Come into Me)
(There's no distance in between our love)
So Gonna let the rain pour
I'll be all you need and more
Because ...

[CHORUS]
When the sun shines
We'll shine Together
Told you I'll be here forever
Said I'll always be your friend
Took an oath
I'mma stick it out 'till the end
Now that it's raining more than ever
Know that we still have each other
You can stand under my Umbrella
You can stand under my Umbrella
(Ella ella eh eh eh)
Under my umbrella
(ella ella eh eh eh)
Under my umbrella
(ella ella eh eh eh)
Under my umbrella
(ella ella eh eh eh eh eh eh)

It's raining (raining)
Ooo baby it's raining
baby come into me
Come into me
It's raining (raining)
Ooo baby it's raining
You can always come into me
Come into me



Love this song so much...a touched of friendship value... ;-)

I definitely feel so so grateful & blessed by God for giving such wonderful friend crossing path with me...

P/S : Everyone values their friendship in their own very unique way...And me, well, this is what I do...I may brag about this & bla bla bla...so what? This is my blog! My page! My story! Turn to other's blog if you dun like it...simple.... hehehehe... ;-p

Muahhhh!



You're the Best Kind

I Believe In You...

Suddenly this song was heard... ;-p

This song capture some great & sweet memories for some...time passes, world changes & people gone separate path....friends before, none after...but one thing wouldn't vanish & disappear...the memories of great times...

Babe, it doesn't matter how u feel, or other people thought...all I know there some whom are genuine & sincerely treat u as someone dear to their hearts...you weren't around anymore & things never & won't ever be the same again...but they remembered you...I know they are...

This song is about believing in one self... and I believe in you... ;-)
Fulfill great things in life...& be happy...do things that satisfy you with no regrets at heart...
Luv ya babe! ;-)




I Bellieve In You

Lonely the path you have chosen
A restless road, no turning back
One day you will find your light again
Don't you know
Don't let go be strong

Follow your heart
Let your love lead through the darkness
Back to a place you once knew

I believe I believe I believe in you

Follow your dreams
Be yourself an angel of kindness
There's nothing that you cannot do

I believe I believe I believe in you

Tout seul tu t'en iras tout seul
Coeur ouvert à l'univers
Poursuis ta quête
Sans regarder derrière
N'attends pas
Que le jour se lève

Suis ton étoile
Vas jusqu'où ton rêve t'emporte
Un jour tu le toucheras

Si tu crois Si tu crois Si tu crois en toi
Suis ta lumière
N'éteins pas la flamme que tu portes
Au fond de toi souviens toi

Que je crois Que je crois Que je crois en toi

Someday I'll find you
Someday you'll find me too
And when I hold you close
I know that it's true

Follow your heart
Let your love lead through the darkness
Back to a place you once knew

I believe I believe I believe in you
Follow your dreams
Be yourself an angel of kindness
There's nothing that you cannot do

I believe I believe I believe in you

When 'Pancit'...Urrgghh...

Last nite, I went to gym after a week break for CNY...well, I really can't believe that I have such dreadful one hour BJ workout...and I was really exhausted even during before 1st cardio block started...damn! it's really frustrating coz I can feel I'm breatheless, dizzy & totally drained out! I never feel that way! Urgghhh! Really dissapointed at myself!

Even Zaza ask me if I'm ok...huhu...did she juz saw me struggling...? But I just keep it up...I dun wanna give up...one class? please la Cilla, last time u join 3 classes okey? Why r u doing this? ~ ceh, pembakar semangat utk diri sendiri lah konon ni..~

Let me recap of what I did during CNY break;

Most of d time at home, I didn't do much...house chores, not so much, coz not so much things to do...besides my mum have donee all the chores already...I woke up as early as 7am everyday...with good intention to help my mum out with things to do at home, but well, my mum is like a soldier already...she work up as early as 6am, her normal wake up time...and she will start to clean the house, sweeping, preparing my dad healthy food (usually two pieces of bread with coffee), emptying my dad's colon bag of his 'waste'...which this part have to be every 3 hours (except when sleeping lah)...by the time I woke up, everything were done already...so I dun have to do anything lah...only thing is, I breakfast, but, not heavy pun...it's only Milo & plain crackers...sad but it's a good food kan? No fats or high calorie food there...

When it comes to afternoon, I followed my mum bring my dad to the hospital for his regular dressing & check up...afterwards, normal la, we go for lunch, but usually we tapau & bring home, mix rice as usual...and my dad with his porridge & soft food...no fats build up juga...right?

Comes to night time, I think this is the part I think is the beginning of the worst to come...usually night time my mum don't usually eat, but since she cook lots of porridge, she will eat together with my dad, but left me & my bro with only her 'healthy food'...so my bro, the hero, will suggest we dine out or tapau bring home...now, in KK, its difficult to find food especially during CNY holiday coz most of the shops closed for one week...so where to go ppl??? even malay stall pun close okey...? In kk, we are harmony...one celebration ja, the whole entire Sabahans will celebrate...hahaha! So, where should we go when times like this? What shop opens even during holidays? What else? Fast food lah the answer!!! Huhuhuhu... during CNY, I went to my uncle's house for CNY celebration okey lah right? But every night falls, me & my bro will hunt for fast food lah...but since both of us bored with KFC already...we go for different thing which is...Burger King! DAMN...! Last time, burger is my fav food...especially weekends, I love to junk myself with burger king...so there we are, ordering my favourite, French Chicken Meal Large! And if we don't go there, we would go to McD ordering my fav for this moment, Double Prosperity Chicken Burger...or if we don't go out for fast food, if we are lucky, we could find 'expensive' chinese stall open, and my bro will just order a large dish...his fav, Sweet & Sour Pork...and we tapau & will just pig out....

Come to think of it...yeah...it's my fault really...for pigging out with all sort of fast food especially burgers...hmmm...no wonder lah pancit like mad kan? if at hometown, the word exercise is only in words & not practical...One week punya holiday sudah mcm ni, if I took more, I dunno what will happen to me...but it's really a waste la...working out so hard at gym & pig out like mad bila cuti...hmmm...need to change lah...but malas!!! Hahahahah... ;-p

So conlusion is, there is no other reason of my feeling that type of exhausion it's my own fault kan really...so...another era begins...I need to do more workout la...since I promise myself, & my bride to be friend that I will lose weight....hopefully...

Another target lah this... :) Anyways...will keep updating my story again...whether I will lose it or gain it... hahaha! Cheers ppl...!

One advice : If you really want to lose weight, dun pig out too much...!


Flat Tyre

Separation Never Easy...

Since last December, I have gone back to KK for 3 times already...

Now, as time passes, it's getting more difficult to be apart from my family...everytime they send me to the airport, I still can stay calm, but as soon as I board the plane, I will start to cry & cry & cry...so bad...I keep promising myself that I will fulfill my parents wish that I will be moving back to KK permanently this year...so I am prepared now I think...

I know I'm gonna miss KL terribly especially my dear dear dearest frens there...even at this moment I miss them so much...or even when they are around...I still miss them...is it something wrong with me...? But I think when I moved back to KK, I will make at least 4 times trip to KL for shopping & meeting my frensss....right?

As I grew older, I find that separation never easy...when we were young, we always know how to meet new ppl & adapt to changes...but when we were old, we always wanna stick by to our comfort zone...my comfort zone would be being around with the ppl that I love...KL frens & family...or KK frenss & family... both also makes me happy...That's the problem start, when you were too attached to ppl, it will more difficult...but I hope all ties we have will never be broken... coz I love them all...



Separation

It's All Coming Back To Me Now...

Have you ever felt that sometimes we were given a second chance by God? Well, after a series of unfortunate events happens to me, I believe so...I really believe on that...

U wanna know why? I got to spend some precious times with my girlfriends from my high school yrs in SFC for the last 2 days...it maybe just a short meet up to discuss on Che che's bridal shower & wedding...but the meeting definitely bring back old memories of our best times in high school...haha! It was so damn wicked...! We really enjoyed our times together & things we been thru during high school just the greatest...! We laugh & laughed & laughed our heads off remembering back our times back in school...& funny thing is...I thought that I might feel abit awkward after haven't seen them all almost 5 yrs...but...magically, I easily can blend with them comfortably... :) Feel like it's where I belong... hehehehe... I feel so lucky to be able to hangout with them after all the neglection & ignorant that I did...that was a chance for me...to be with them again...


We talked about Che2 Grand Wedding & her much awaited shower in November...and Che2 have this rules that I have to be at least a size 7 to attend her bridal shower...!

Haha...she said that I haven't changed abit...apart from my hair, my manners (like I dun have any manners last time haha... ;) ) & more feminine...she's talking about my body lah off course..! No change...apa pula no change?! Like I already work hard enough @ d gym...but I know lah my food intake haven't changed so much...but I am workin on it...! Terpaksa lah...for che2's sake...













Pics taken : everywhere flashes is allowed! haha! Arriva, Salim's, Pan Pac, Escalators, Jalan Raya...etc...(we don't look as natural as Ferrari but I'll bet the Sepilok Orang Utans can...photogenic...! ;-p)

Here are some of the candid pics her sister took whilst we discussing abt her wedding theme, shower, place, etc....






















Picture : Che2 (Bride to be) & Fharini aka Gendut or now best known as Ferrari (wedding planner lah kira ni)...I think Che2 's wedding will be a grand one... kan Che? haha! ;-)





Here is one of my close fren in high school too...Sue (suggested some wedding packages to Che2)


Need to workout at least 3 hrs in d gym? Not in enough kah my Body Jamming? Hehe..my BJ class that I love?? Well, That was Che2's instruction...Ya... 3 hrs lazying in the gym what I do best kan? hahaha... ! ;-p whatever it is, I do need something to push me to change...

We all need some sort of motivation to workout & target to achieve...my target now is to fit in to size 7 dress... As Che2 planning for a white bridal shower theme...I must look good in white lah then...

So now I'm wondering, what to do next? What to do first? Maybe I could start slowly in terms of food, then slowly increase my quality workout in the gym...right? Hmmm....hopefully it's gonna be a success...

But, I need 'someone' to help me...I really want one!!! Heeelllppp!!! A gorgeous guy perhaps...? huhuhuhuhu...I want a sugar candy..!! For my eye workout! Hehehehe...Niceeeee one... Ahaks! ;-p Someone like him maybe....? Hmmmmm.....




Memories

All I Know...I Should Be Happy...

There are quite a few events that happen to me recently...

For Valentine's Day, I got double celebration...I received a bouquet of Blue Roses sent to my office & that was the first time ever I received something unexpectedly....

That person may not be someone special like a lover but it does make me feel so so so happy & excited...it's something that makes me realize that it doesn't have to be someone you truly love but even some perfect stranger too could make your day more brighter...by doing such lovely gesture...that person may not be totally a stranger but still it was a touching effort...

Besides the Roses, I have a lovely Valentine Lunch date @ Chakri Palace, Royal Thai Fine Cuisine at KLCC...it was definitely a great lunch...he was adorable...haha! I consider him as a good friend to me...decent guy I'd say...he could make the date so magical for me...a clean date mind you... ;-)

Whatever it is, this week was a fine week for me...a fren of mine had a fight with me, but it wasn't supposed to be a big issue, it was about a guy basically...just stupid for girls to be fighting bcoz of a guy...but luckily we kiss & make up already...& she's was really sweet to have done that for me...makes me all so teary...I wanted to cry...God really I am grateful for having her in my life! ;-)

I hangout with another good fren of mine, chit-chatting about ourselves, current events & dilemma, sharing is what we do best... haha... I always say this & I'm gonna say it again...I always always always have great times whenever I'm with that fren...You really make me happy too dear! I feel great...**Ya lah...I'm obsessed kan...hahahahaha! Funny...but I don't care...coz you always have your own unique ways in making me laugh, cheered up, happy & guide me in my crazy life...only great frens can laugh & share tears at the same time...right? You know you can share with me anything dear... ;-)

Life are pretty good for me, despite my Dad's condition, I know my family & I will always pray for his speedy recovery & we will help him regain his strength & motivate him to be strong again...met a guy that able to show me how I could have the chance to be loved by someone...& how a guy can see through my heart & accept me for who I am inside...though he may not end up or destined to be with me, but definitely he make me realise that I am worthy to be loved...having just incredibly sweet & so supportive loving frens around me...it's undescribable...

I'm in KK, at my hometown at the moment, I am happy here...being with my family, missing all my great frens in KL & best of all, I feel good about myself...

Happy Valentine's Day...spread ur love to everyone as all of us deserved to be loved....

;-)



Loved

I Want To Know What Love Is...

Hmmm....I post quite a lot of entry today...hehe especially for this Valentine's Day special...

Love...I think its something really great... But it can also hurt so much....
Well, you won't know if it is Love until it hurts...Love is something you felt in your heart...

I've known some fren of mine that is too afraid to be involve in Love...it's not a bad thing...they just don't want to make themselves in a vulnerable state...I understand that feeling...

Well, in my opinion, u just have to learn to at least try...open up your heart to ppl...who knows along the way, you might captured someone's heart...

Wish all singles out there to be able to meet their other half... ;-)
This day is a celebration of Love... enjoy this song...this is quite an old song but Mariah Carey have lighten up this song to a modern style but I prefer the old version...so enjoy this ya?

I'm also hoping to get the 'spark'...but my sexy cupid haven't found me anybody yet...haha!
Whatever it is, I leave it up to faith...

I Want To Know What Love Is...



I gotta take a little time
A little time to think things over
I better read between the lines
In case I need it when I'm older
Aaaah woah-ah-aah
Now this mountain
I must climb
Feels like a world upon my shoulders
And through the clouds
I see love shine
It keeps me warm as life grows colder
In my life there's been heartache and pain
I don't know if I can face it again
Can't stop now, I've traveled so far
To change this lonely life

I wanna know what love is
I want you to show me
I wanna feel what love is
I know you can show me
Aaaah woah-oh-ooh
I'm gonna take a little time
A little time to look around me, oooh ooh-ooh ooh-ooh oooh

I've got nowhere left to hide
It looks like love has finally found me
In my life there's been heartache and pain
I don't know if I can face it again
I can't stop now, I've traveled so far
To change this lonely life

I wanna know what love is
I want you to show me
I wanna feel what love is
I know you can show me
I wanna know what love is
I want you to show me
And I wanna feel, I want to feel what love is
And I know, I know you can show me

Let's talk about love(I wanna know what love is)
the love that you feel inside(I want you to show me)
I'm feeling so much love(I wanna feel what love is)
no, you just cannot hide(I know you can show me)
yeah, woah-oh-ooh

I wanna know what love is, let's talk about love(I want you to show me)
I wanna feel it too(I wanna feel what love is)
I wanna feel it too
And I know, and I know,
I know you can show me
Show me what is real, woah (woah),
yeah I know(I wanna know what love is)
hey I wanna know what love(I want you to show me),
I wanna know, I wanna know,
want know(I wanna feel what love is),
hey I wanna feel, love
I know you can show me, yeah



Well...ermm..What about you baby...?
Can you show it to me..coz I want to know what love is...from you... ;-)

Whataya Want From Me...

Despite all of the critics saying this & that about Adam, but for me, he is a hottie, sexy & gorgeous! Most of my guy cousins says....Adam Lambert is a Guy for Men only...haha!

Whatever it is...I love his song...this song in particular...sometimes I just wanna cry out loud....

WHATAYA WANT FROM ME!!!!!!!!!! **patience Cilla, deep breath... ;-) **

Anyway, enjoy this song ya! ;-)




Hey, slow it down
Whataya want from me
Whataya want from me
Yeah, I'm afraid
Whataya want from me
Whataya want from me
There might have been a time
I would give myself away(Ooh)
Once upon a time
I didn't give a damn
But now here we are
So whataya want from me
Whataya want from me
Just don't give up
I'm workin' it out
Please don't give in
I won't let you down
It messed me up, need a second to breathe
Just keep coming around
Hey, whataya want from me
Whataya want from me
Yeah, it's plain to see
That baby you're beautiful
And it's nothing wrong with you
It's me – I'm a freak
But thanks for lovin' me
Cause you're doing it perfectly
There might have been a time
When I would let you step away
I wouldn't even try but I think
You could save my life
Just don't give up
I'm workin' it out
Please don't give in
I won't let you down
It messed me up, need a second to breathe
Just keep coming around
Hey, whataya want from me
Whataya want from me
Just don't give up on me
I won't let you down
No, I won't let you down
SoJust don't give up
I'm workin' it out
Please don't give in
I won't let you down
It messed me up, need a second to breathe
Just keep coming around
Hey, whataya want from me
Just don't give up
I'm workin' it out
Please don't give in
I won't let you down
It messed me up, need a second to breathe
Just keep coming around
Hey, whataya want from me(Whataya want from me)
Whataya want from me
Whataya want from me


;-)

Stop messing with my head

Cry Me Out

I love this song....

Here's a song for this Valentine's Day...this song represent a strong women...haha..

Enjoy!

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Cry Me Out - Pixie Lott

I got your emails
You just don't get females now, do you?
What's in my heart
Is not in your head, anyway

Mate, you're too late
And you weren't worth the wait, now were you?
It's out of my hands
Since you blew your last chance when you played me

You'll have to cry me out
You'll have to cry me out
The tears that will fall mean nothing at all
It's time to get over yourself

Baby, you ain't all that
Baby, there's no way back
You can keep talkin'
But baby, i'm walkin' away

When i found out
You messed me about, i was broken
Back then i believed you
Now i don't need ya no more

The pic on your phone
Proves you weren't alone, she was with you, yeah
Now i couldn't care about who, what or where
We're through

You'll have to cry me out
You'll have to cry me out
The tears that will fall mean nothing at all
It's time to get over yourself

Baby, you ain't all that
Baby, there's no way back
You can keep talkin'
But baby, i'm walkin' away

Gonna have to cry me out
Gonna have to cry me out
Boy, there ain't no doubt
Gonna have to cry me out

Won't hurt a little bit
Boy, better get used to it
You can keep talkin'
But baby, i'm walkin' away

You'll have to cry me out
You'll have to cry me out
The tears that will fall mean nothing at all
It's time to get over yourself

'cause baby you ain't all that
Baby, there's no way back
You can keep talkin'
Baby, i'm walkin' away

You'll have to cry me out
You'll have to cry me out


Won't cry no more baby

In the mood of St. Valentine's Day..."So Close..."

As tomorrow we celebrate St. Valentine's Day, it's a day that we celebrate love in our life...Be it with our lovers, family & even frenss...it's all about the big 'L' in our life...











Was watching repeated Enchanted the movie, I hear this song & suddenly my heart was racing hearing it...Why? I felt different...I dunno why... Different feeling of happy & glad...that my life has been filled with lots of caring & love support from everyone around me...

I haven't found my happy ending yet...I could hope & wish it will happen eventually if it's God's will...But for now, I'm enjoying my life with everyone close to my heart...



















Enjoy this song... ;-)

HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY TO EVERYONE....




Title: So Close (Jon McLaughlin)

You’re in my arms
And all the world is calm
The music playing on for only two
So close together
And when I’m with you
So close to feeling alive

A life goes by
Romantic dreams will stop
So I bid mine goodbye and never knew
So close was waiting, waiting here with you
And now forever I know
All that I wanted to hold you
So close
So close to reaching that famous happy end
Almost believing this was not pretend
And now you’re beside me and look how far we’ve come
So far we are so close

How could I face the faceless days
If I should lose you now?
We’re so close
To reaching that famous happy end
And almost believing this was not pretend
Let’s go on dreaming for we know we are
So close
So close
And still so far




Love Day

It's Just One Of Those Days...

Well, it's just one of those days where everything went wrong...I hate it so much!

Arghhh! Emo! Emo! Emo! I wanna cry...I am sad...I just want everything back to normal...how it used to...I dun wanna see this...I hate seeing things that I see right now...it shouldn't even happening!

I am hurt with the things you said...but I felt worst coz it wasn't even me that supposed to be scold at...! It should've been him...! But you're acting like I should be put to blame on...I'm a victim!

It's easy to say I hate you...for behaving like this...as if I'm wrong or too sensitive abt that! But it was never easy to simply ACT as if I dun care about you coz I still am...and always will be...

I hope you know how terrible and miserable I am right now...when u doing this....

:'(




p/s : this is one of ur fav song...hope u enjoy it... ;D huhuhuhu..... :'(

All My Life - KC & Jojo

Ohhhhh, baby, baby, baby, baby, baby, baby, baby, baby, baby
Ummmmmmm, I'm so glad
I will never find another lover
sweeter than you, sweeter than you
And I will never find another lover
more precious than you, more precious than you

Cause girl you are

Close to me you like my mother,
close to me you're like my father
Close to me you're like my sister,
close to me you're like my brother
You are the only one, my everything
And to you this song I sing

Chorus
All my life
I prayed for someone like you
And I thank God, that I,
that I finally found you

All my life,
I prayed for someone like you
I hope that you feel the same way too
Yes I pray that you do love me to

I promise to never fall in love
With a stranger
You're all I'm thinking of
I praise the Lord above
For sending me your love
I cherish every hug
I really love you

Repeat Chorus

You're everything I ever know
When you smile my face always seems to glow
You turned my life around,you picked me up when I was down
And I hope that you feel the same way too
Yes, I pray that you do love me too
(Fade out)And all my life..........



Cry Baby

I Miss My Gym!!!

OMG!

I really miss my gym...badly...it's been almost a week plus I didn't go to my favourite classes already...fat fat fat! How to burn? Been filled with lots of chaotic things lately...I was unable to be really concentrating with gym classes...

If not bcoz of my workload that seems to never really reduce...& going back to KK for 2 weeks...really feel suck! Without gymming...I feel like my life was incomplete...! Cehhh....statement...hahaha! ;-p

Whatever it is...I REALLY MISS GYM..!! Better active mode for one whole week next week...before going back to KK again on CNY to see my Dad...!

Huhuhu....

Gym Fanatic ;p

What A Friend I Have In You...

I have had some rough times with my Dad's condition & tension that I have about my life here...lots of things to be done if I'm going back home...KK permanently...

But what kept me strong was...definitely gonna be having great supportive frens around me whom always look after me like a family...

I met some new frens...getting to know some of them...sharing stories with them... But there is this one person whom I could relate to this one quote that suit this person the most...it goes like this;-

"The best kind of friend is the one you could sit on a porch with, never saying a word, and walk away feeling like that was the best conversation you've had"

Sounds weird...but this is what I shared with that person...we could just sit there not saying anything or less talking I'd say...& once we walked away...I felt a huge relief & happy just be there with that person...it was nice feeling...I never felt that b4 with anyone...but with that person...I felt great...

It was a coincidence we grown close, but I never doubted that you could be a best kind of friend to me...you make me happier, you make me feel better in my cloudy days & you put a shelter & pillar for me to lean on...we may seldom spend time with each other...but everytime I gotta chance, I wouldn't want to miss it...

I always end up having a blast with you as you 'spoilt' me so much already...haha! ;-p

I would honestly missed our hangout times after moving to KK later...& I may cry horribly...even at this moment...


Thanks dear...for everything...meant it from the heart...

The Feeling That I Have Left...

Hey you...

It's been awhile...haha,
Funny isn't it,
Just when I thought I've forgotten you,
There you are,
Standing in my mind...

Suddenly we cross path,
We oath not to do this anymore,
But why you're flashing back in my screen saver head,
There times I close my eyes...I see you...

If you let me hold your hands,
I would hold it tight,
Not wanting to let go,
But my logic wins & right...

Why I felt betrayed,
Never knew this is coming,
You hurt me,
But I think I've dissapointed you more...

The feeling that I have left,
Was for the love that I still have for you,
and I told you so,
This feeling will be forever won't go...



Left

All I Need Is Strength & More Faith...

I just came back from KK for my cousin's wedding & my Dad's operation...

It's a mix feeling of happy and sad at the same time...

I wanted to be supportive of my cousin's wedding but I couldn't do it 100% coz my mind was so occupied with my Dad's condition...Dodo's wedding was great and everyone were quite pleased with it...and I am very happy for her...God bless her wedding... :)

But the highlight of my presence in KK was probably for my Dad's operation...2 weeks after been diagnosed with Staged 2 Adenocarcinoma (scientific name)...

I was taking care of my dad in the hospital for a couple of days b4 I went back to KL...after his operation was a success, now it's time for 'nursing', recovering & adapting process for him...b4 his next check up & review...he was having trouble at first seeing all the stitches & staplers on his abdominal area (around 30-40cm long) & 2 small stitches on his neck & chest (for his chemoport insertion - chemotherapy to be exact)...but now he should be able to adapt to it slowly...

During my days in the hospital, besides taking care of my dad, my eyes were too 'taking care' or should I say my 'radar' was working so well, eyeing some of the cute, handsome & pretty damn attractive young doctors (housemens)...but not up to the Dr. McSteamy or McDreamy level type la...hehehe... ;-)

Mostly younger than me definitely but sure they are really an eye opener...some of the doctors really gave you the killer look..haha...& one did make me heart skip a beat, he definitely a winner that time...something sweet happened but it's for me to know & for you to find out ya... ;-P

Sempat lagi flirting whilst taking care of my dad, well, what to do...my dad was resting on his bed, so I took slight chances to wonder around la...but flirting mode was half way switch on saja...so...not so much action there woohoo... hehe ;-)

But another one of the interesting event happened during my stay in the hospital was probably when a 19 yr old young guy, (whom sharing a room with my dad) vomitted a 20cm long nematodes, a common roundworms (also known as Ascaris) or in laymans language they called it, "Cacing Perut"....ya it's so true & so eeewww when I witness it with my own eyes...it was half way came out from the poor guy's mouth & later was pulled by a female doctor on duty as no nurse dare to take it out from the guy's mouth...it was pinkish color more like our earthworm...uurrgghh... feel like vomitting myself right now if I remember the moment back...gelliiiii eeee....

I talked to my dad & it was the best moment to be spending some time alone with my dad...seeing him with all the stitches, needles, drips & morphine injected on his body making him so weak really makes me so easily emotional & I cried few times on my own when my Dad was asleep...I tried to be strong but it is not easy as for all this while my Dad, was a strong man whom living active life, but the small stroke attack him end of Dec 08 & now this...really makes me wonder why all these can happened to someone active like him...well...I guess this is life...so unpredictable, things happen, whether you like it or you don't, whether you are ready or not...always prepare ourselves for the worst...I love you Dad so much...though there were many undeniably bad things happen to our family, I pray, and we pray together as a family for God to protect us, strengthen our faith & to be strong for your recovery...& pray for all good & great things to come for us & for miracle... Love you so much Dad... ;'(

I'm praying...praying deeply for your recovery...

A Daughter's prayer

Shout To The Lord...

Lord...I Offer You My Life...

The Power Of Your Love...

Dear God,

I need You everyday in my life...and I need You now more than ever...

Give me strength to face this & so I could give strength to the people that I love & care about in my life...

To help them...to guide them...

And with the power of Your love, let great things happen...and if it is Your Will, let miracle happen in Your name...




The Power Of Your Love