2 Days…

Haven’t update my blog for the past 2 days…

Been tired with gym lately…balik rumah, cuci kain, terus tidur…but I think I’m doing fine…just that my legs quite tired lah with all the jumping, stepping, running, dancing etc… ;) But the best of all, I can easily fall asleep now…sebab tired kan…so when I lay down touch the pillow terus flat till morning…it’s a nice feeling…maybe this feeling penat will be going on for the first 2 weeks but I hope it will be my norm routine to go to gym and tryout 2 or 3 class max at one go…

At the gym, I had a quiet time on my own, focusing on my workout, focusing my target & maybe can broaden my networks by making new friends…

Last Thursday, I went for BJ class @ SPK, supporting one of my friends, Uchop doing TT in Jason’s class…It was so much fun, we laugh, we scream & we dance like we are in our own world…haha! Damn wicked! I like the vibe there!!! Amazing…! I got goosebump juga coz dunno lah… ;p

Ever since morning, I was experiencing terrible headache probably due to lack of oxygen in my brain kot…(ceh macam pandai ja)…coz I felt difficult to breath pun ada juga…but takde lah nak layan sgt…

I think it’s bcos I stop eating my BP pills tu lah yg menaikkan my BP esp now I’m always active…I took 2 pills of uphamol but the pain only gone for few hours and then it kicked back again in the evening…

But pening2 pun…sampai juga jejak kaki kat Sg Wang during lunch…nak survey something kata nyer…hehehe…I was asking a favour from K Ajie & Nieza to accompany me to search for sumthing….what is it? Hmmm…cannot tell lar… but I think I found it already…but which one..later we will know…

During night BJ class, I was fine at first but feel light dizzy je…dah bila bab pusing memusing tue…suddenly my head rush like mcm throbbing pain on my head…after BJ, I plan to join Pump but with that condition mesti I injured or fainted terus lagi susah kan? So, I relax my mind & body with hot shower…but the throbbing pain kept goin on…

I text my friend to pick me up coz I really cannot tahan the pain if I walk…gerenti sumthing bad happen kan…so I waited for my friend at SPK & she gave me a ride home…*segan nak minta tolong kt one of my friend in d gym…u know who u r hehe*


Friday

I started my Friday with a great positive mood…coz I woke up feeling rather fresh & energetic…I thought that my BP pills out of stock…rupa2nyer kat ofis plak..so I took 1 pill, then tetiber je my hyper kat ofis menjadi jadi…well, they said, Tidak Sah if Cilla tidak hyper…! Hahaha…! ;) I like making people happy…& laugh so that, they realize that Life is Wonderful if YOU choose it to be…& it’s all in ur attitude towards life…But don’t be too over la…everything in moderation… Enjoy Life! Enjoy Work! Enjoy Socialising! Enjoy Ur Free time! Enjoy Ur Private Moment Alone! Enjoy with Great Friends! And most importantly, Enjoy with ur own loving family…!

I called up my mum during lunch, I talked to my dad at first, cos I forced my mum to pass the phone to my dad…

The reason why is that…my dad had a minor Stroke last year December 08, and mostly for Stroke patients, they paralyzed half body…But for my dad’s case, his small blood vessels at the back of his head, not sure what they called it, was the place that the blood thickens…it doesn’t develop yet as a blood clot *touchwood*…but it makes my dad’s movement & his speech slows…& he can’t write properly or talk in a normal speed…last year, me & my bro bought 2 type of walking stick for him & a wheelchair so that we could bring him out from the house & go for window shopping…but he refused, even more stubborn than his normal behaviour…coz my dad is a very stubborn person…but with his condition, he makes it even more worst…*now I know where I got my stubbornness from hehe* He also didn’t want to go to church for like a month or two…refused to be seen his condition like that by people…

I was not in KK when he had the attack…it happens few days b4 I go back to KK for Christmas holiday…when I got the phone call early morning from my mum saying that their in the hospital, I broke down & cried my eyes out during my breakfast time at one the mamak’s restaurant…They didn’t call me up the night b4 bcoz my mum knows that I can’t hear things like that…My mind that time was so blank & the only thing I wanted to do was to go for EL & to be there for my dad…but there no leave available for me already…I took advance leave then bought another ticket thereafter I go back & see my dad that time…I took extra 2 days leave so overall about 2 weeks lah I went back KK…

Once arrived home, my mum said that my dad keep on asking when I’m coming back to see him…when I was really in front of him, he seems to be confused at first…doesn’t seem to recognize me…he didn’t wanna talk either when I try talking to him…My mum said he doesn’t want me & my bro to see him in that state…so he only speak to my mum…never wants to open his mouth if me & my bro wanted to talk to him…I hold back my tears when I look at his face…no expression…my mum ask if he remember who I was…I barely hear his answer but he nodded…and said “ingatt..” I went to my room, I cried a little from the tears that I hold… Me & my bro determined to find any info abt Stroke…the medical supply, therapy & all… Got some assistance from my uncles & aunties juga lah that time….

Well, this entry kinda makes me remember that ‘turbulent’ time…But to make long story short…I forced my mum to pass the phone to my dad bcoz I wanted him to practice his speech…I talked to him…ask him how he was doing…what he normally do during lunch time…what food he eats…tapi last2…me pula yg kena marah…haha…my dad… always like that…but he’s improving...he can walk now without any support…he can slow jog…& can walk down & up the stairs without us…he can bath on his own…eat on his own…I was very happy to talk to him…

Oh yess…not forgetting Bibi Echa! My cousin’s daughter…She can recognize my voice from the phone already…everytime I call my mum, she always pass the line to Echa…& when she hears my voice, she will start mumbling & laughing…cute!!! I wanna a baby!! ***Tiba2 plak…*** Yalah…if u want baby, u must find the ‘father’ first…kan?

Eeiissshhh….na mau fikir dulu boleh? But I want a baby… huhuuu…
***Mix story ler nieh***



Big & Beautiful Daughter to my Dad & Echa’s Favourite Aunty… *Haha!*